nj

i miss it so much :(
it's nearly been a week since i left and i hate it here so much, definitely need to go back asap, april hopefully
i didn't really update this while i was there, which is a shame as i have a terrible memory and if i were to update everyday (as i actually did stuff over there, compared to nothing over here) then i'd be able to rememember every detail of the days i spent there and all the little inside and personal jokes that had me in tears laughing sometimes haha
i cried all the way home, which sucked.
they didn't put me (a tiny little crying girl) in first, which sucked.
i was delayed a whole bunch in newark cause of the weather and therefore missed my flight from amsterdam, so got to sit around in schipol, which sucked.
i got home late and had to go to college the next day with no sleep, which sucked
so basically everything to do with coming/being home sucks. i hate lots of things right now, it's not good.
a few good things i guess are things seem to be on the up with jp, i have no idea how long for tho, we're never the most stable
oh and i'm getting a fancy new phone on monday.

nj

so i'm here, was up for like nearly 30 hours yesterday so its like 3pm now and only just properly getting out of bed
yesterday was cool, went over to new brunswick for ice creams and to be shouted at by some crazy lady tellingus not to park so close to her car
it is SO warm here and they were saying it was a cold day, im pretty scared about me melting or something

packing

packing packing packing packing

weekend

i had a really good one, was at jonathans from around 4 on friday
we had a great weekend toether, but it didn't exactly end as amazingly as i'd hoped, we're still apart and it sucks cause we were so good this weekend.
part of me is thinking twice about going away, i really want to sort things out with jonathan before jetting off for 10 days and i catn really afford to go up for another night even though i would LOVE to see him before i go.
oh and work this morning was shit.

h8h8h8

ok so i am once again boyfriendless, poor jonathan is hating everything right now as he didn't get into the raf
but once he's happier with his life hopefully we can straighten us out again
but until then i will probably be hating life

i hate this town

i need to get outttt
got my AS level results today, proving to me that i wasted the last year at college
CCDEU
i'll probably go into it later, but for now im watching desperate housewives, so i'm relatively happy

mousey 2

measured him, he's coming up to 3cm long
my friend said a trap caught its mum (they reckon) oh and not a killing trap one where you catch them and set them out free
so the mums gone and reckons there may be a few babies around, so we're gonna look for them tomorrow
i'm gonna look afer them until they're big enough then set them free or maybe give them away because i wont be able to look after them for long, especially if there's boys and girls, i'll end up with millions
i just sliced up some carrot and cucumber for him, he's loving it

my new little friend

awhhhh
in my friends kitchen, stuck in a mug was a tiny little mosuey, sucks cause that means that means she has hundreds of the little buggers probably
but its pretty cool cause i get to hang out with it for a while
but i have to let it go really, but i think its far too young to survive outside, its not much bigger then my thumb
but the little guy rules !

this weekend

spent it at jonathans, unfortunately not for the right reasons, having a shitty time at the moment and i really do need out of this house/town.
i love harrogate to bits but most of the people here can suck it
i did have a nice weekend with jonathan tho, no surprises there tho. he went out on the satruday night so when i went and got him at 4am i got to witness him drunk for the first time, pretty funny experience, but he says he's not ding it anymore so thats cool. i probably prefer sober jonathan anyway, but drunk one did have some funny stuff to say.
on the way home i took the wrong junction off the motorway, oops.
and i didnt get to sleep till 3 maybe because i stayed at his watching knocked up until silly o clock
but this morning i actually had to wake up, first morning at my new job, got 3 days of training
and after day 1 i am bored and knackred
i just wanna get stuck straight in, not watching dvd after dvd promoting the company and having tour after tour of the shop i have been going to since i was a baby
and just 2 more days of this
then get my results on thursday morning and then rush off to have my till training 10.30-6.30 what a nightmare
first proper shift on sunday morning, should be good hopefully
thats all i have to say.

7/8/8

alxhntrx (22:25:11): LOEY
smallxtash (22:25:51): All time loe
alxhntrx (22:26:01): the kittens are ruining my life
alxhntrx (22:26:02): /stuff
smallxtash (22:26:24): Hahahaha
alxhntrx (22:26:25): theyve sat n the box on the tv and made it all fall off like 6 times now an dstill havent learny
alxhntrx (22:26:26): t
alxhntrx (22:26:29): learnyt
smallxtash (22:26:35): Hahahahaha
smallxtash (22:26:47): Oh dearrr
alxhntrx (22:26:49): and one got stuck in the blinds a while ago
alxhntrx (22:26:53): so now theyre broken
alxhntrx (22:27:02): and i wake up with the sun tanning my bottom every morning
alxhntrx (22:27:14): if only i slept on my back id get tanned boobies too
smallxtash (22:27:32): HAHAHA
smallxtash (22:27:46): Do you slep
smallxtash (22:27:51): Oops
alxhntrx (22:27:53): most nights yes
alxhntrx (22:28:00): like mot over people
alxhntrx (22:28:04): OH MY GOD
smallxtash (22:28:14): Do you sleep naked
alxhntrx (22:28:20): sometimes !
alxhntrx (22:28:25): always if its warm
smallxtash (22:28:32): It's hard to type on here
alxhntrx (22:28:40): yeah well im on a regular keyboard
alxhntrx (22:28:45): and i said over instead of other
alxhntrx (22:28:51): im typing like i talk now
alxhntrx (22:28:52): terribly
smallxtash (22:29:01): Oh loe
alxhntrx (22:29:13): ill be typing free instead of three soon
smallxtash (22:29:20): You are just awesome
alxhntrx (22:29:36): the kittens are stealing every tie in exsiatnce in this house
alxhntrx (22:29:51): they borugt one back from wherever they hide them today tho
smallxtash (22:29:58): Every tie?
alxhntrx (22:30:00): yep
alxhntrx (22:30:05): like what goes round your neck
smallxtash (22:30:07): Hahahaha
smallxtash (22:30:35): sounds like they're doing it on purpose
alxhntrx (22:30:42): they are !
alxhntrx (22:30:45): they go on tie hunts
alxhntrx (22:30:49): and rubber bands sometimes too
alxhntrx (22:31:00): but luckily they brought one out from hiding this morning for my dad to wear
smallxtash (22:31:06): Maybe making an escape ladder or somethng
alxhntrx (22:31:06): he said he just found it laying around on the stairs
smallxtash (22:31:15): Hahahaha
alxhntrx (22:31:18): he says they matched it to his shirt pretty well
alxhntrx (22:31:21): stylish kitties
alxhntrx (22:31:27): they chose the right tie
smallxtash (22:31:43): Incredible

alxhntrx (22:51:30): HAHAHA SHALL I GET A FORD MUSTANG
smallxtash (22:52:08): YES
smallxtash (22:57:02): Vroom vroom
alxhntrx (22:57:35): i have a feeling the insurance will be through the roof
alxhntrx (22:57:39): they wont even quote me
smallxtash (22:58:06): Haha I think it's height discrimination
alxhntrx (22:58:32): you should see the pictures of it
alxhntrx (22:58:33): so pretty
alxhntrx (22:58:44): OH ITS LEFT HAND DRIVE TERRIFYING
alxhntrx (22:59:03): i woldnt know what to do with myself
alxhntrx (22:59:07): so disorientating
smallxtash (22:59:10): Haha oh dear!
alxhntrx (22:59:25): it has sat nav fitted tho
smallxtash (22:59:45): Wowza!
alxhntrx (22:59:49): its an 07
alxhntrx (23:00:12): it has such a pretty bottom
smallxtash (23:01:22): How much is it?
alxhntrx (23:01:45): 2,300 i think
alxhntrx (23:01:48): i dunno why its so cheap
alxhntrx (23:01:52): has a fair few miles
alxhntrx (23:01:53): but
alxhntrx (23:01:55): its new
alxhntrx (23:02:04): and has a fancy cd player and sat nav
alxhntrx (23:02:16): i reckon its cause it probably eats fuel and ause its left hand drive
smallxtash (23:02:21): Whaaaat that's still alot of money loe!
alxhntrx (23:02:34): cheap compared to what i was looking at haha
smallxtash (23:02:46): I know it's got a bunch of stuff though
alxhntrx (23:03:07): i just had to do like 7 verification codes to send you a fucking message
alxhntrx (23:03:34): cause i like to send you about 4 messages a day via myspace to tell you how im feeling by the looks of my outvox hahaha
smallxtash (23:04:29): Hahaha
alxhntrx (23:05:33): NO NO NO NO POS JUIST FARTED AT ME
smallxtash (23:06:02): HAHA
alxhntrx (23:06:10): actually the worst thing in my life
alxhntrx (23:06:12): is cat farts
alxhntrx (23:28:14): my desktop background is amayyyzing
smallxtash (23:28:37): What is it?
alxhntrx (23:28:45): a picture of xzibit
alxhntrx (23:28:49): and it says
smallxtash (23:28:59): Ahaahaha
alxhntrx (23:29:09): yo dawg i heard you like car so we put a car in yo car so you can drive while you drive
alxhntrx (23:29:13): I LOVE HIM
smallxtash (23:29:26): hahahaha
alxhntrx (23:29:32): with pimp my ride the uk one reminds me of you and the us one reminds me of my boyfriend
alxhntrx (23:29:43): cause westwood reminds me of you
alxhntrx (23:29:50): and x to tha zee reminds me of jonathan lal
alxhntrx (23:30:01): just cause he prbabaly wishes he was xzibit
alxhntrx (23:30:14): and i reckon you are cause of the picure where you look like the suicidal tendencies guy
alxhntrx (23:30:24): cause westwood dresses like that quit e alot
alxhntrx (23:33:40): im gonna start working out how cool am i


pretty much all i have to say for today
ben is the only thing that talks to me ever
favourite friend ever and he puts up wiht my typing :)
the kitties are the main subject of everything on here i guess

so yes, tomorrow i will start working out so when i get up i will put on my running shoes and go for a jog, probably like 20-30 minutes for now, i have planned my route with google maps and hopefully its a route were as little people as possible will see me
then after much trawling round the internet i will do excerises to "get the perfect butt" get "female abs" (yuck, i wont go that far, but i will tone up) and probably some work on the legs
oh and some chest stuff to keep the boobies pert
found a bunch of excersises to do and video of workouts and everything !
i spent today pampering myself, trying ll the crazy make up my gran keeps sending me (probably as a hint to wear more) and giving myself a manicure as i have LOVELY nails right now, i love them.
so tomorrow i will pay for it.
i LOVE healthy food too.

music will start soon i promise, im just too lazy and busy doing nothing right now !

oh and i have a job ! yay
i probably posted this yesterday but i cant remmeber at all, i probably didnt post yesterday at all
tuesday and thursday 4.30-8.30 and sunday 10-2 so i have the weekend to go to jonathans and i'll have to leave on sunday morning when he goes to football and i can still ahve a bunch of nights to see him on too so im happy with that
and on monday tuesday and wednesday i have training 9-4.30 and i will be getting payed for that so thats over £100 for the training ideal !
it will probably ALL get spent on JP
no care, i love it

jp

oh and since the 30th me and jonathan have been back together so on the whole i am a happy girrrrrrrrrrl

06/08

just a quick update
been at jonathans since thursday hence the lack of them recently
best boy.

heres the kittens

sorry for the lack of anything proper, prmoise soon

babysitting

i love it !
sitting around eating other peoples food and watching big brother and other atrositys...ideal. oh and getting money afterwards isn't too bad either ! i'm definately in need of it !

28/7/08

So !
I've had a pretty gooood few days
I'm finally almost happy with my itunes so that's good ! Just a few more covers to find and I will be the happiest bunny ever. My parents decided it was finally time to get me an ipod so thankyou ! that's all nicely filled up and gathering scratches on it's lovely mirrored back. Why did they make it so fragile that even my fingernails leave a scratch... Nevermind i still love it, it was definately necessary. And i nicked back my old speaker system and i've hooked it up round my room, got the surround sound speakers and the big sub woofer under my bed, and the little jack to whack into my ipod, sounds crazy but it's ideal.
ummm, ben my loe told me the other day that he's gonna venture up into the north and see me a few days, we are still mourning the loss of becca on big brother, so i will endeavour to make a collection of videos of her and luke for us to watch when he comes up cause all i was really planning on doing was sitting watching big brother most of the time. I really do miss her, poor luke :')
the other night i got to see chaos days aswell, i was so happy, haven't seen them in nearly a year, they sound a whole bunch different and they only got to play 5, maybe 6 songs, but i still loved life and it's their release show (in the north :D) in just over a week (also when ben should hopefully be here YESSSS)
i like chaos days.
so yeah that made me a very happy girl
and i cant remmeber if i mentioned seeing h2o the other week so i'll do it (again maybe) now
seeing h2o was amazing, i haven't seen them in like 3 years when they were in europe, so i was siked, wasn't so happy about the choice of songs they played, didn't play any of my favourites and none of the good oldies. The place was full of crusty punks and was pretty scared, but nevermind i still absolutely loved it. a shame i have no money right now cause i definately wanted to see them again, lets just hope it isn't another 6/7 years before they come back to the UK
aaaanyway, back to chaos days, even tho it was only in leeds i thought it might be easier to drive in as the train really wasnt doing it for me in this blistering heat, and the car has air con. I also wanted to try out the i Trip thing or whatever it's called, i was a little dissapointed as it was pretty crackly, but it let me listen to decent stuff on the way there and back so nevermind !
so this proved to be a bad choice for a number of reasons, parking and price. parking was a nightmare.
this picture is all i need to show really i guess haha ( i felt like a right doyle taking it)
some nice big dents and scrapes to the bone.



this happened a while ago, but nevermind while i was in the car i thought i'd document haha
some mercedes decided to barge into me and i thought ah well never midn and kept driving then i saw them charging up the road behind me in their car as they'd decided to come and blame it on me. 10 minutes of him shouting and me being worried later he finds out that theres nothign wrong with his mirror and that mines smashed so he decides to bugger off leaving me to try nd fix the mirror and the body work behind it.



ummm so parking at that show wasn't fun and i gues i'll have to bugger off to halfords at some point before the rust sets in.
also at the show was ryan, what a pest. that's all i need to say ha.

there was a bunch i wanted to say i think, but theres a cooking comptetition show on so i'm pretty distracted and it's blanked my head.
so hopefully i will ahve remmeebred TONIGHT when i promise myself i will do my first set of uploads maybe ?

morning

so so close to finishing the music sort out on my harddrive
soso happy

which means uploads of my shitty music at sometime soon !
just spending the next few days putting it into itunes and adding album art

22/7/08

quick update

got my flights booked for nj, not sure if i told this that before
just had a job interview at sainsburys, went ok, i'm happy with it
uploading music will happen VERY soon i promise, nearly done sorting it out
will hopefully have something decent to say sometime soon, sorry blog !

a quick update...

about my weekend so far.
hopefully i will bother to write more tonight
so friday night, go to johns, get a call from jonathan and bomb up to his about half 11 to find him asleep, bless, heard some horrible things on the radio on the way there, fuck galaxy and radio one on a friday night. didn't have a chance to grab any cds on my way out and i need to make some mix cds, butttt i have the feeling that they dont play in my car. in that case i need to get myself an ipod
so i leave his around midday as he chucks me out to play football (thanks lovely! haha) and i get stuck in traffic on the a/m1 for over 2 hours, managed to move just over a mile in the first half hour, then after that it was plain gridlock. didnt move in the slightest for the next hour and half or something. everyone got out of there cars and just chilled out in the middle of the motorway, reminded me of that episode of malcolm in the middle
so i got back at about 5 instead of 2 when i was expecting, spent the rest of the day/night bumming around sorting out my ridiculous music collection and ripping some more vinyl
which is where we get to today, which is all i ahve done
went for a quick sunbathe session, but it got cold, so i gave up on that.
hopefully i can get a whole heap of music sorted tonight, it's starting to bug me always wanting to sort it out and not being able to listen to it.
there was something i really wanted to add into here but i cant rememebr for the life of me what it was
buttttt, saw an amazing show today, shear genius i think it was, it's a hairdressing competition show, AMAZING.
and jerry springers lying gameshow is on tonight aswell, ideal, 11pm on sky3
H2OOOOO NEXT WEEK
fuck sheffield, but no care, its h2o, i'm gonna die, its been 3 years

fuck my life

i haven't done any drawing
and i don't plan on doing so
haven't done anything worthwhile, just moped about and whinged, i hate nearly everything right now, being bummed out 24/7 sucksssssssss

i promise myself

i am going to draw when i get home tonight

BEN

LOE YOU
I HOEP THE QUEENS READING THIS

bananana milkshake

i really need one, fuck my brother for finishing my ice cream
for those that need it (all of you)
whack half a pint of milk, a banana and a largeish dollop of vanilla ice cream into a blender, WOOSH and thats it, yum, a pint of banana milkshake, its ideal. do it.

09/07/08

so, coming back and writing the rest of it yesterday didn't happen, no surprises there.
took the day off college today, the yorkshire show is on so no ones in today, i would have enjoyed going, get some sun, excersize and more free samples of stuff then i could carry, but there was no sun, i never feel like excersizing and i didn't get out of bed till around midday, even though i don't do lay ins, just watched my daytime tv on BBC1 - property and antiques shows, ideal.
so today, i woke up, played on gta abit and didn't really get far because now i've got far enough into the game that guns are involved i'mnot a fan, cause i'm terrible at it and hate dying/getting caught, so i have a small hatred for games right now, which isnt brilliant seeing as i just updated my xbox live, garan i'll never use it, too scared.
sending off all my passport stuff tomorrow and probably booking my flights, i don't know how many more days i risk waiting for the price to keep going down before it shoots back up again. I have no idea about visas either, fuck the american embassy, such an effort.
other then xbox today i have finally given up and got rid of all the music on mylaptop and stuck it on the harddrive, so i have been ripping a bunch more vinyl onto my computer now i have space again, sucks that i have to be hooked up to the harddrive whenever i want to listen to music now
and also sucks that i can't get a ipod touch cause i have more then 32Gb :(
i'm feeling generally bummed out all the time at the moment, not just tired and weary, but my minds all not too brilliant right now either.
OOOO also today, the most interesting thing probably, got a billion firefox plugins and addons, quite flashy and fun, make my laptop look fancy and expensive and might actually inspire me to blog as one of them was this thing i'm using now to post this. it's pretty fun
my internet is also all colorful and nice now too
i cant stop brushing my teeth, i just had to have a break and brush them for maybe the 5th time today, but thats also becuase i was eatinng waffles and managed to get golden syrup everywhere in the process (sorry about your xbox handset bro ha)
and one more thing, peep show, still brilliant, watching all the series/episodes now, ideal.
cant remmeber the first series at all, but its amazing
watch it. surfthechannel.com
OH AND IM AHEAD IN DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES OH MY GOD OHMY GODDDDDDDD cant wait till september ish for the next season, hopefully some americans will put it on the internet forme to watch.
it sounds like a monsoon outside, great fun
hopefully if i dontend up sleeping lots tonight i'll get round to sorting out some of my music and uploading some stuff because i think thats what i mainly want to turn this into, seeing as i have more music then i have life to talk about, i really do do nothing with my time, sorry !
but no care, i love it.

So..

I'm really not good at this, nightmare.
Got my first road kill the other day, felt bad about it, i think it was a miniature weasel thing, maybe an oversized hairy worm.
Also got my passport photo yesterday, it's lovely.... ha i will take a photo of it tonight, i really need to get this blog going i guess, after the second day, where i was going to post stuff and didnt i guess it jsut went straight downhill, maybe even under the hill.
Ive been spending my whole time at the moment pretty much just listening to classical music and drawing haha, need to sort out UCAS soon, which i'm really not looking forward to as apparently they bug you for the rest of your life. and personal statement doesnt sound fun as i'm not the best at bigging myself up. never mind !
i havent been completely happy with life recently but i'll deal with it !
definitely gonna get some music uploads on here asap
also probably gonnna be writing all my lists on here too, i make far too many lists and lose them so i guess i cant lose them if theyre on the interwebz. most likely wont be interesting, but at least it makes me feel like there was a reason for me signing up to this blog.
i have 6GB left on my laptop and i still have a whole heap of vinyl to rip onto it, so i'm worrying about that, i have no idea where all the space has gone or what to do with it, i have an external harddrive, but i dont want to have to be connected to it all the time i want to listen to music or update the ipod i still ahvent got etc etc, kinda defeats the object of having a laptop.
Im in college at the moment, i hoooopefully will be writing some proper stuff here tonight !

This again

Every month or so i seem to create a new blog, not tell anyone about it, forget about it myself and just repeat. So hopefully i'll remember this one (as i tell myself every month)
But I'll probably never update and you'll probably never read, so I guess it's even.
I'll probably just fill this with rubbish about my wasted days (every day) which i usually spend either at college doing nothing, or in my bedroom probably doing even less.

Recently I have somehow got into reading after postponing this hobby the whole of my life, I could easily count the amount of books (without a huge amount of pictures and with a huge amount of pages) on one hand. I can't even think of one, but the other day as i lay around (tanning just one side of my body, ridiculous) I decided to grab a book, one I'd tried to read as a kid -which i found out after getting to page 17 and finding a homemade bookmark with a drawing of the pokemon tokepri on it, which was pretty cute - dr. dolittle, I guessed as it's pretty much a kids book it wouldn't be too much of a struggle and it seemed pretty intellectual, having a large-ish amount of pages and not too many pictures, well i ploughed through that, being taken aback at the amount of racist slurs in a childrens book, and I guess i must have quite enjoyed it as today i picked up another book and started reading. It is Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, quite a step up from Dr Dolittle, but never mind, I took it from John and photocopied the whole thing. Oh and it has amazing illustrations in it but Ralph Steadman....get on it. So i now have a huge photocopied book to try and read. Quite looking forward to it after seeing bits of the movie between napping.
Managed to drop biology today, thank god, but i may pop in while they do their practical work for the coursework, 'cause it involves playing with seamonkeys which looks pretty fun, 'specially seeing as my ex boyfriend destroyed mine by dropping half a tictac in their tank when i dumped him :(.

Hopefully I will be bothered to take photos to try and make this even remotely interesting to read. Also links to sweet practioners/photographers/just general interesting stuff that i seem to stumble upon but also forget about and probably do nothing with.
I will probably also include music uploads as I have just spent months tagging all my music perfectly and I am very proud of it. Though it has enlightened me on my ridiculous taste. But all h2o albums are definitely my playlist for today.

Theres a bunch more stuff I should probably write about but I'll leave it for now and I can gaurantee (sp?) that NONE of my following posts will be even half this long probably, that is if I ever remember this one. We'll see.